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He Loves Us

Posted: May 17, 2013 in Realizations, Religion

Right away I noticed him.  His head wrapped in a turban, he fit in with all of us misfits, all of us travelers on this journey of life, religion, politics, and survivors of the expectations that arise from ourselves and others.  Under the turban was a young man seeking for answers, running and playing the games with the rest of the youth, and just a fellow human being alive at this same time in history.  The light in his eye, the honesty of his body language, spoke volumes.

I was one of the facilitators at a Christian youth retreat for the weekend, and he had come as a participant with his school.  Even though he went to a Christian school, his religion was Sikh.  Sikhism is a beautiful religion.   ”Sikhs believe in the equality of humankind, the concept of universal brotherhood of man and One Supreme transcendent and immanent God.”  And his persona lived that.  It was so cool seeing him interact with the youth of a Christian religion.  His presence was a reminder that we are all the same, regardless of religion, race, political standing, or economic place in this country and world.  In fact, his presence and exuberance of life sparked the unspoken question of why do we even have such borders around different religions – and even tighter borders around different denominations within Christendom…and dare I say, even tighter borders within the same denomination?

On our last day of the retreat, I stood at the back of the room helping with supervision of the teens as they had their last meeting together.  There was a band leading out in music from the front, and all the teens were singing loudly, revived and rejuvenated from the weekend.  The sound was beautiful, really.  The song that they sang was “How He Loves Us”.  The lyrics of the chorus say over and over “He loves us, oh how He loves us, how He loves us so…”   And then I saw him.  Singing his heart out.  With everyone else.  And in that moment a million things happened in my brain all at once.  It was crazy, really.

It was as if I saw a future picture of a time when we will all be in a place of peace – you could call it heaven, I guess.  And we were all singing that song, “How He loves us so”.  And we all – human beings from all walks of life, religion, sexual-orientation, political standing, dress, culture, mistake-ridden-life, – were united as one under this LOVE.  The thing that united us was not our belief, or any of the above categories.  The thing that united us was this crazy LOVE that takes us beyond ourselves, beyond our agendas, beyond our “I’m right” mentality.  There were no walls, no borders.  I could see us all – Buddhists, Christians, Taoists, Muslims, Jews, Sikhs, Hindus, Agnostics, – I could see us all gathered there.  We were still in our different regalia that demonstrates our belief – but we weren’t looking at it or were distracted by it, nor were we trying to prove something by it.  We were all facing God, the One who is LOVE, all amazed that we are indeed Beloved…and it is THAT fact – we are ALL Beloved –  that united us.

Isn’t this the beautiful truth – We are beloved.  He loves us.  All of us.  Regardless of our crazy arguments.  Regardless of our experiences. Regardless of our brokenness.  He loves us.  He sees beyond our man-made disguises.  He sees us.  The beauty of who we are – sacred, created, truly a universal brotherhood of humanity, all drawn and existing because of the One Universal LOVE – the Being Who created us all.

It all came to me in a chorus of a song.  But it felt like I had been lifted into that moment.  It was beautiful, and I truly felt in awe of God. And then I asked myself – if we claim to follow this Being who is described as LOVE (see 1 John 4:16), then why do we not see our fellow humankind the way this God, this LOVE, sees us?  Indeed.  Because the fact is, He loves us.  All of us.  Oh how He loves us.  It’s time we did the same.

“With this Love, Bitterness becomes Honey

With this Love, Copper becomes Gold

With this Love, Dregs become Wine

With this Love, Pain becomes a Healing Herb

With this Love, Death becomes Life

With this Love, The King becomes a Slave.”

- Rumi

The Different Faces of Jesus

Posted: March 12, 2013 in Realizations

Recently I was at a retreat center in San Francisco.  There was different art on the walls and this picture caught my attention:

Different Faces of Jesus

As you can see, this portrays all the different faces that artists have used to depict what Jesus looked like.  Notice the similarities.  Notice the differences.  Now ask yourself:  Which ones do I relate the most to and why?  What makes a picture similar or different?  Is it similar because it is tied to what I feel Jesus should look like?  Is it different because of my cultural or religious background?  Are there any images on there that repulse me?  Why – why am I repulsed?  What do I expect Jesus to look like?  What do I expect Jesus to be?  And how many of these expectations are based on what I’ve created versus Who Jesus really is?

Now think about all the faces you will see today.  Think of all the stories behind each face.  Think of all the yearnings.  All the gifts.  All the love, the pain, the injustices and the graces.  Think of what makes you and I different.  Think about what separates you from another.  What draws you to a face?  What repulses you from another?  What makes you similar to another human being?  What makes you different?  How much of those similarities and differences are based on the biases, cultural & religious norms and walls we’ve created?  Now ask yourself:  Could it be that I have seen Jesus today?

In the child’s giggling, playful spirit

In the homeless man’s haunting eyes

In the addict’s desperate longing

In the stranger waiting patiently in line for coffee

In the driver’s intensity beside you on your commute to work

In your spouse’s steady rhythm

In the student searching for truth

In the young woman longing for love

In the young man chasing after strength and identity

In the migrant worker harvesting fruit

In the Muslim offering their petition

In the factory worker creating our garments

In all the yearnings and routines of the human race…

The different faces of Jesus surround us daily, hourly, moment-by-moment.  He can’t be boxed by culture, religion, sin, denomination, sexual orientation, politics, opinion, race, class, gender, bad-habit, country, species, or bias.  Remember that His name is I AM – He is everywhere, in everything, and present in all of space and time.  The Great I AM.  Remember that He is LOVE.  This word, LOVE, is what unites us all to every other being on this planet.  This is why we are here.  LOVE is the longing of every creature on this earth.  Therefore I am connected to you, and you are connected to me.  Jesus is in you…regardless of who or what you are.  “I tell you the truth, whatever you do to one of the least of these brothers and sisters, you do it to Me.”  (Words of Jesus, Matthew 25:40)

Now look in the mirror.  Look closer.  Look at yourself.

Do you see Him?

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It’s been awhile since I’ve written. In the wake of the Connecticut shootings a few weeks ago, I had to take a hiatus from writing, from busyness, from just “noise” in general.  After some of the rush of the holidays, I feel I’m ready to put my thoughts back out there.  I just had to take a few weeks of “silence”.  Here’s a piece of what has been brewing within me:

It’s time to stop.  To shut up. To be silent. For the only sound to be a breath, a wail, a prayer.   To stop the chattering and rushing and debating.  It’s time to mourn.  When was the last time we had a day of mourning as a nation?  As a world? As a human being?  It’s time to stop the talk about politics for a moment.  It’s time to set aside our personal agendas for a day.  It’s time to look each other in the eye and feel the pain that is our world. It’s time to grieve.

We have a day to vote.  We have holidays to celebrate.  We have days off from work where businesses are closed.  But have we ever taken a day to be silent and to cry, to mourn?  Have we ever been given permission to remember that we are all human, and therefore all sacred, and to mourn the loss of tragedy that is happening around us?

As I pause from my usual routine of busy planning, of writing, of social interactions, of teaching, and I look into the face of grief, it can feel overwhelming.  But I also feel human again.  I feel the huge temptation to distract myself from the agony of mourning, and numb the pain that it carries: to watch a movie, to get more busy with work, to try to fix the situation, to sleep, to debate, to travel, and the list could go on.  None of these things are bad in and of themselves, but when I use them to replace and medicate what my soul really needs (which sometimes is to mourn), I begin to stop being human.  When was the last time we mourned – as a nation? As a world? As a human being?

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There was something curious Jesus once said.  He said,

 “To what can I compare this generation? It is like children playing a game in the public square. They complain to their friends,

‘We played wedding songs,
and you didn’t dance,
so we played funeral songs,
and you didn’t mourn.’”

-Matthew 11:16, 17

The generation back in Jesus’ day seemed to be in the same place we are today: sitting back and critiquing life as if it were a game, and not actually taking time to live life, be it celebration or mourning.  We seem to have celebration down.  But when was the last time we mourned?  And it seems the more we don’t mourn, the more we see evil playing out around us.  Could it be that the more we don’t mourn, the more angry we become?  And when we don’t mourn, especially for others, we disassociate ourselves from the human race, and we don’t feel the need to do anything to stop the suffering in the world.  We begin to become robots that buy and sell, numb ourselves with entertainment and activity, filling our world with more noise to drown out the sound of wailing and tears within our hearts.  But perhaps what we really need is to take time to mourn.

In Ecclesiastes 3 we’re reminded that there is a time for everything.  Verse 4 says,

A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.

When was the last time we took time to grieve and to cry?  We take time to laugh and dance, which is good.  But we also must take time to cry and grieve.  And it’s never convenient. It’s not fun. But from what I am understanding, it is a must to heal.  If we want to come to resolutions that will truly change the world, we must take time to mourn.  If we want to understand the heart of the Divine, the heart of God, we must take time to grieve. If we want to honor what it means to be human, we have to take time to weep, to wail, to mourn.  For it is in those sacred moments that we remember that we are all connected and when one person grieves, we all feel it.  Because we were not created to hate, we were created to love.  We were not created to die, we were created to live and help others live well.  Grieving reminds us of these truths.

To mourn.  To look suffering straight in the eyes and really see it.  And to do this well, in my opinion, means there are no words used.  And there aren’t any words.  Think of the horrific things that have happened and are still happening.  There are no words, because these things were not meant to happen.  These things require silence and mourning.  To sit with the pain, the grief, the agony.  Usually when people try to say things in these situations, it never comes out right.  Because perhaps the thing to do first is to be silent and mourn.  Grief doesn’t need words – it needs to be held.  This is what mourning is.  There will come a time for words, for debates, for resolution.  But first, mourning is the most sacred thing to do.  Once silence is felt, usually the words will emerge.

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Speaking of words in times of mourning, there is a beautiful prayer known as the Jesus Prayer, that says, “Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.”  It is thought traditionally to be the unceasing prayer of the saints, and perhaps, of all humanity.  Many traditions have taken this prayer and inserted different lines between this main phrase, to help the person praying it to be more directive with circumstances happening in life and the world.  I took the liberty to add my own lines to this prayer.  Feel free to add yours. After each stanza, you say the refrain, which is “Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have Mercy on Us.”  May this prayer help be a vehicle to carry our grief, and ultimately release it in the arms of God, the Great Healer.

Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have Mercy on Us:

- For our tendency to be too busy, Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have Mercy on Us.

- For our tenacity in simply medicate our pain, instead of finding true healing, Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have Mercy on Us.

- For the beautiful souls lost on December 14 in the Newtown, Connecticut shootings, ………..

- For the parents left with empty arms, empty beds, and broken hearts, …………………………….

- For those suffering from the inner torture of mental health issues, …………………………………

- For our need to satiate our lust for buying and selling, but neglecting our fellowman, …………………………………….

- For our time and money consumed in entertainment, while the realities of the world remain untouched, …………………………..

- For neglecting the poor within our reach, including ourselves, ………………………………………….

- For filling our world with more noise, instead of peace, …………………………………………..

- For debating issues for the sake of pride and promoting our own agenda, …………………………………………….

- For putting chains upon each other based on gender, race, social class, political affiliation, religion, and other man-made statuses, …..

- For using You, God, as the reason and source of our bigoted views, therefore using Your name in vain, …………………………………

- For our fear of being uncomfortable and getting involved to help end suffering, ………………………………………

- For raising our voices to share our opinions, but closing our hearts from getting involved, ………………………

And the prayer never ends, does it?  This is just the beginning. Join your voice with mine…

Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have Mercy on Us…

There are moments of the Sacred that surround us everyday.  They scream at us, or whisper at us, or dance around us.  Most of the time we are unaware of the dance, of the whisper.  At times we hear the scream, or see the miraculous within the mundane.  Regardless of us seeing it, it still is present, every moment perhaps.  There are times when the sound bites get through.  There are moments when my eyes are lifted from my stressful routined-existence and I see something beyond myself.  I see something Sacred.

Yesterday we were in San Francisco for my husband’s birthday.  The day was perfect, with clear skies and no wind.  We ran all over the city, checking out Coit Tower, Union Square, Fisherman’s Warf, and finally ending the day with a trolley ride back to our parked car.  The sun had set, and the cool air caused us all to snuggle a bit within the rattling cable car.  There was a satisfied stillness to the ride, as we all sat at the end of another day of life, riding back to all our different destinations, stories, journeys, histories and lives.

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Then I saw her.  Probably no more than 3 years old, her big eyes taking in all of life.  Her curls danced a frame around her face that painted a hint of kindred kindness, steeped in innocence.  She sat there next to her mom, crossed legged on the uncomfortable wooden bench that is the cable car seating.  She sat like an old soul with the openness and awe of a fawn.

Then the moment happened.  She looked at me.  Into my eyes.  Across the cable car from her corner besides her mother and grandfather, she saw me.  Our eyes locked.  She looked at me with a curious kind of wonder, looked right past my adult masks that I’ve learned how to hold up and claim as my identity.  She looked at me.  I smiled at her.  And then she smiled at me.  But it was more than smiling at my face.  She smiled at my soul.  She saw me, and seeing that I saw her, she smiled back.  That was it.  But it was so incredibly powerful.  In those 3 seconds she said more to me than has been said in a long time.  She saw my true authentic self and smiled with that awe and wonder still written all over her face.  She saw the human in me.  I wasn’t a category, or a job, or a social status, or a religion.  I was a fellow human being.  And she recognized that beauty and returned a smile, as if we were in on the secret that, yes, indeed this life is beautiful.  She showed me God.  She exemplified the Sacred in that moment.

On a cable car?  In San Francisco?  With just 3 seconds so much can be said?  The innocence of an exchanged look and smile of reverent commonality.  A shared grin of “this is life, and it’s a beautiful ride, isn’t it?”  A gaze that spoke the blessing of Namaste, which means, “The Divine in me recognizes and honors, the Divine in you.”  I had encountered a moment of the Sacred from a 3-year-old fellow-traveler.

The Sacred is all around us.  Have you seen it’s colors painted within the threads of your day?  Have your ears heard the rise and fall of the song?  Has your soul sensed the pulse of the dance, pulling on your routine schedule and challenging your steps to move to a different beat?  The Sacred is all around us, and perhaps, especially in the chaos.

There’s this t-shirt out there that says “They Will Know We Are Christians by our T-shirts.”  Which is kinda funny, and kinda sad.

It seems lately that the first part of this phrase could go many different directions.  Let’s try some:

They will know we are Christians by our…Facebook Updates

They will know we are Christians by our…Christian Quotes

They will know we are Christians by our…Vegan Diet

They will know we are Christians by our…Bumper Stickers

They will know we are Christians by our…Political Affiliation

They will know we are Christians by our…Calling Out Sin

They will know we are Christians by our…Allegiance to the Church

They will know we are Christians by our…Tithe-paying

They will know we are Christians by our…Dress-code

They will know we are Christians by our…Websites

They will know we are Christians by our…Serious Demeanor

They will know we are Christians by our…Conservative Stance

They will know we are Christians by our…Liberal Stance

They will know we are Christians by our…End Time Prophecy

They will know we are Christians by our…Jesus-Music

They will know we are Christians by our…Righteous Deeds…oh wait.

They will know we are Christians by our…Bickering and Fighting…I mean…

They will know we are Christians by our…Plastic Smiles…uh-oh…

They will know we are Christians by our…Condemning of Others…ouch…

They will know we are Christians by our…Having to Always be Right…

They will know we are Christians by our…Having a Proof Text to Win an Argument…

They will know we are Christians by … How much we Talk about Hell…

They will know we are Christians by our… Picketing Signs and Shoving Pamphlets at People

They will know we are Christians by our… (What would you add?)

Even though the last few were a bit facetious, unfortunately they ring way too true.  What are Christians known for?  As Mahatma Ghandi said, “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.”

As we know (or should know), the phrase actually goes like this:  ”They Will Know we are Christians by our Love”.  Ah! That’s it! Love.  The phrase comes from a song, which is taken from the Bible verse John 13:34, 35 which says

So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other. Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples.”

What’s interesting to me is who Jesus is talking to.  The context here is everything.  The group Jesus is talking to are His disciples in the upper room. Many people have looked at this verse and this phrase and have said that the world will know we are His disciples if we love.  And so Christians focus on loving the world, which is good!   But loving the world and everyone in it is already a given if you’re a follower of Christ.   The context is right in the passage itself:  Jesus is referring to people who follow Him, loving other people who follow Him.  Jesus says, “Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples.”  It’s already a given that we are to love the world and everyone in it.  But it is an entirely different thing to love each other.  Let me explain.

Right now in many churches and denominations we have so much fighting and dissention.  In fact, it’s not just in religion, it’s in politics as well!  Just recently after the election in the United States, there was talk of secession because certain voters in certain states felt that they could not belong to the United States of America because their political party looked like it had lost.  In some churches and denominations right now there is huge infighting based on discussions regarding gender roles, worship style, homosexuality, unity, and the list could go on and on.  That’s why we have over 35,000 denominations within the Christian faith today.  Because we have never learned to disagree well.  Dare I say, we’ve never learned to love.

The other interesting thing about the context of this verse is that Jesus has just washed the disciple’s feet at the last supper.  This is a tradition we do in the Adventist church to show humility and love to one another, and to remind each other that the only One lifted up higher than any of us is Jesus Christ. That my opinion is not higher.  My stance on a certain issue is not higher.  But that we are all under Christ and therefore brothers and sisters.  We are family.

And notice also that Jesus calls it a “new commandment.”  It looks like He knew it would be a difficult thing to do.  He needed to show us that this is not a small issue to Him.  This is big enough to make it a commandment.  It’s as if He knew we would get our focus on nit-picking others and pointing fingers and fighting to be right, and  we would forget how to love.

On the sermon on the mount, Jesus also refers to this mindset when He says,

 “You have heard the law that says, ‘Love your neighbor  and hate your enemy.  But I say, love your enemies!  Pray for those who persecute you!   In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike.”  - Matthew 5:43-45

Once again, most people apply this to the “world” versus “followers of Christ”.  But what if Jesus was also referring to those within the walls of Christendom?  What if my “enemy” is the one who disagrees with me and is persecuting me because of our differences?

One more verse that is of interest to me comes from 1 John 4.  The whole chapter is amazing, but check out these verses:

“Dear friends, let us continue to love one another, for love comes from God. Anyone who loves is a child of God and knows God. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love. … If someone says, “I love God,” but hates a Christian brother or sister, that person is a liar; for if we don’t love people we can see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see? And he has given us this command: Those who love God must also love their Christian brothers and sisters.”

- 1 John 4:7, 8, and 20

It’s so easy to love and commune with those who agree with us and think the same way we do.  But what about those who don’t?  It looks like God wants us to learn how to listen to others and extend grace to each other, especially those we don’t agree with.  It appears from these passages that God desires us to love others, and especially each other.  Especially those with whom we find it so difficult to like.  Because in all reality, when the world sees a group of people who love and respect each other, even in the midst of disagreeing, there is something divine about that.  Because it is not human.  It has to come from a greater source.  This will prove, not only that we are His disciples, but it will also prove that perhaps a God of Love actually exists.

I’ll be honest.  This won’t be easy.  But maybe that’s the point.  I’ve been hurt by so many “Christians” within my own denomination, and I know you have, too.  But Christ is telling me to love. He’s telling you to love.  What if we actually took Jesus seriously and did it?  To love each other (instead of competing to “be right”).  To pray for each other (instead of praying against each other).  To honor each other by “washing each other’s feet” (instead of gossiping about how aweful the other is).  To pour out our life for each other (instead of our anger and malice).  To not let bitterness control us (but instead let LOVE compel us).   Oh God of LOVE, be the very pulse in our wrist, the watchword on our tongue, and the spring in our step.  As the old song goes, “what the world [church]  needs now, is Love, sweet Love!”

(in light of the discussion, we’ll end with that great tune)

Have you ever been disenfranchised with Church, Christianity, etc?  I have.  I have come so close to “leaving” because I’m so fed up with all the politics, all the drama, all the lines drawn in the sand by professed followers of God.  I’m so tired of all the expectations that can be put on people. Sometimes it seems that “saints” within the church expect more from people than they do from God. When this happens it’s clear that the church has gone from being a movement and has turned into an organization that must self-preserve.

Recently someone reminded me that “the gospel is not safe anywhere, especially in church.”  This gospel, or good news, is radical.  It’s life-changing.  It can’t be contained.  It can’t be dwarfed into a doctrine or explained within a fundamental belief.  Think of it this way: How do you box air?  How do you describe music to someone who’s never heard the sound before?  How do you express in words the color of a sunset to someone who has never been able to see with their eyes?  How do you whittle down the gospel of love into 28 beliefs, or cram it into a creed?  It may be a good try and you may hit parts of the gospel, but it is ultimately quite impossible.  In fact, when we do that, could it be that we begin to lose the very essence of the gospel?  Could it be that it slips through our fingers like trying to cup all of the oxygen into our hands?

What is the gospel?  It is the scandalous truth that there is this Love, this Grace, that is beyond any human achievement.  It’s given everything for us and is constantly compelling us to surrender to it, to look beyond ourselves and give this Love and Grace fully to others – regardless of who they are.  I believe it was made manifest to us beautifully by the life, death and resurrection of Jesus. It is anti-ego, anti-agenda.  It is this sacredness that is yearning to pick us out of the mundane of our routined-existence and awaken us to the reality that there is a Being Who not only loves us, but is constantly wanting to rescue us from our kingdom of selfishness, and carry us into an awareness of a new reality about a kingdom of love and a freedom from the darkness that surrounds us…including the darkness of religion.  The gospel is this crazy movement that is the essence of a life-force that brings the world, the entire world, hope.  It embodies Love to every single creature on this spinning earth, and that love is more than just a feeling or a mere belief – that Love will manifest itself in actions to every creature, because that is what it is at its very core.  So if people are filled with this Love, they can’t help but BE that movement of love to their world, wherever they may be.   This love has the potential to turn our world upside down!

This reality, this gospel, is dangerous – especially to religious people.  When you think about organizations, corporations, companies, etc., the people who work within them can become religious about the company itself, and lose sight of why it even started.  They can protect the building and corporate offices, and end up losing the essence and vision of why it was created in the first place.  Religion protects and guards – Spirituality pulses and moves.  The gospel is dangerous to people who have to protect an organization because the gospel, aka LOVE, or the SACRED, threatens those who have built their identity and foundation of belief on ideas instead of on the Spirit.  When we look at history, many religious organizations have referred to this gospel movement as “apostasy.”  The definition of apostasy is ” the abandonment or renunciation of a religious or political belief.”  And so, maybe many religious people are correct to call the gospel an apostasy – because Love, Grace, and the Kingdom of God are a sort of Apostasy – they go against human thinking of self-preservation and man-made ideology.  The gospel can’t be copyrighted.  It can’t be claimed by a group of people, because it claims all people!  We just respond – that’s the crazy movement of the gospel of love and grace!  It’s like trying to patent water – impossible.  We just respond to its existence and thrive off of it.

The church should be the place that helps to vehicle this gospel to every nation, kindred tongue and people – no signing of papers to join our company and start paying club membership fees.  Just trust the gospel to do what it does – draw people to it, like an oasis in the desert – free and available to all.  The church should be the place to let everyone know that the oasis exists.  Unfortunately the church has, at times, fallen short.  And so the church needs people who are willing to stand and shout it from the rooftops (or steepletops) within these man-made buildings, corporations, and companies called “church”.  I would even go so far as agreeing with Jesus (Who was guilty of apostasy by the church of His day), by stating that perhaps there are people who are not “in church” who are getting into the kingdom of God ahead of the religious people.  It’s possible to be religious about church, but deny the gospel (see Matthew 21:31).  In fact, could it be that the church is too many times holding the gospel hostage, adding clauses, lines to sign, policies to vote, amending articles, etc?  And so those who are outside the confines of church politics have the freedom to be an avenue for the gospel to fully express itself.

So it is that at this time in my life, I will choose to preach – experience, live-out, shout out, step out-side-the-box – yes, I will preach this gospel!  Especially to the church.  But I am also aware that those who have done this (Jesus, Luther, many of the Reformers, etc)  have been crucified in one way or another.  The gospel is dangerous!  It is scandalous.  The gospel is not safe anywhere.  May God give me the strength to never be ashamed of the gospel – especially in church.

He stood against the wall, wearing jeans and a long-sleeve t-shirt.  A baseball cap covered his hair and hid his identity from most of the crowd.  He pulled out the prized possession from its case and began to fill the metro station with the sounds of beauty and magic – the sounds of music.

Joshua Bell, one of the most famous violinists, played for the next 43 minutes during morning rush hour in Washington D.C.’s Metro. 1,097 people rushed past during that time, with only a few stopping to listen for a moment.  The night before, Bell had played to a sold-out crowd where some of the seats went for $100 or more per person.

The few who stopped to listen?  Mostly children noticed the music right away and tried to pull on their mother’s hands to stop and listen, only to be yanked on in the mad rush of the morning’s schedule and routine.  A man, who was running ahead of schedule, noticed the music.  Not one who usually listens to classical pieces, but rather enjoys rock’ n’ roll, this was out of character for him.  When interviewed later as to why he stopped, he mentioned there was just something about the sound of the music.  It was peaceful.  He checked his watch, and noticing he was ahead of schedule by a few minutes, stopped and listened and soaked in the presence of peace.

Bell, who opened his violin case to take donations, only made $32.17  in 43 minutes – yes some gave pennies.  No one recognized who he was except for one woman who had seen him play before.  She stopped and stood, front row for her own private concert of one of the world’s greatest violinists, and took in each morsel of the moment.  She commented on the experience by saying, “It was the most astonishing thing I’ve ever seen in Washington.  Joshua Bell was standing there playing at rush hour, and people were not stopping, and not even looking, and some were flipping quarters at him! Quarters! I wouldn’t do that to anybody. I was thinking, Omigosh, what kind of a city do I live in that this could happen?” 

Why was Joshua Bell even playing in the Metro?  Well, this was an experiment done by the Washington Post.  (You can read about the experiment HERE.)  The experiment was to see how many people would stop and listen and slow down.  There was a hidden camera in the Metro taking in the entire thing.  Check it out in this short 2-minute recapture of the experiment:

The music is all around us all the time.  Can you hear it? It comes in different ways.  Do we have time for beauty?  Are we aware of the Sacred that is dancing all around us, calling out to us, summoning us from our busy, hectic lives?  Are we annoyed when our schedules are interrupted?  Are our ears open to the call of the miraculous in the mundane?

Perhaps we would recognize the sound of the Sacred calling to us if we just slowed down, stopped, opened our ears and gave the world permission to speak into our routine.  Perhaps it’s time we put away our cellphones, our calendars, our ear plugs, just for a moment.  Perhaps it’s time we hush and be still.  Then we would be aware and know that God is present, right here, right now.  In this moment.  The music is playing all around us – do you hear it?

(To read about the experiment from the Washington Post, go to http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2007/04/04/AR2007040401721.html)

Recently I sent a text message to a friend…a text message that was meant to be seen only by my husband.  Awkward, right?  To make it more awkward, this friend is a male colleague of mine.  Thankfully all I texted was “when will you be home?”  My friend texted back “I am home now” which then alerted me to the fact that 0ops! I sent my message to the wrong man!  We had a good laugh.  (Thankfully I didn’t text my husband something more private!)

Being misunderstood is something usually so much deeper than the above scenario.  I think we’ve all been there.  When someone makes a judgement about you and won’t let you correct them.  Or when you or someone else says something apparently innocent, but for someone it packs a punch of hurt and offense because the connotations bite at a very real hurt unknown to the person who made the comment.  Being misunderstood.  It’s like being put into a box out of your control and how do you negotiate with the ones who have put you there – the ones who believe their idea about you, and not your truth?  How can you start the peace treaty talks when you’re the one who is in the prison of being misunderstood?  How do you try to correct a rumor or misconception about you or your character when the circumstances or persons in power have put a proverbial piece of duct tape over your mouth and so you feel you have no voice to raise?

Being misunderstood.  Right now I am feeling this tension.  With all the talk lately on women in ministry and women’s ordination that is happening within my denomination, it’s crazy to be at the receiving end of stigma, judgement, anger, and labels.  Let me make it clear that many in our church are in favor of women in ministry and women’s ordination.  But there are also those who are not in favor of it, which is ok:  it’s a great discussion and dialogue and there is much study and understanding coming to the surface.  But there is also much hurt being done in the name of “defending truth” and some of the methods that are being done of showing disfavor to women in ministry/ordination, is frankly, well, hateful.  I won’t go too in-depth.  However, the main item of misunderstanding that comes from those who disagree with women in ministry, is that they have a perception that women who are in ministry are women liberal feminists who are trying to trample upon men and take the role of the man.  They believe that women’s ordination (and most likely women who are pastors) are in a spirit of open rebellion and need to remember their “God-given role”.  So then I am now lumped in a box of being a feminist and in their minds am on a campaign of evil rebellion to raise up myself in a role that only belongs to a man.  (It’s a crazy hurtful thing to be misunderstood, especially by those who claim to follow a spirit of truth…)

But if they only knew me…and most of us… they would know this is not the case…isn’t that the frustration with being misunderstood?  If they had asked me, they would know that I am not a pastor to try to push a political agenda.  They would know that I didn’t even want to be a pastor because of all this bickering over the issue.  They would know that I don’t care about titles and politics within the church – that I love people and my students.  That I see the hurt in this world and I am raising my unique voice of love to try to drown out the hate that so tries to steal at us all.  If they really knew me, they would know that I yearn to work in collaboration with all races, genders, personalities, skill-sets, etc to LOVE this world that is looking for a picture of LOVE and has for so long seen only hate and dissonance within the Church.  My soul is tired and hurt once more – once more I find myself being misunderstood, all because I am following my God and wanting to change this world with LOVE… but alas, I am of the female gender (something I had no choice in and choose not to change) and therefore am put in the box of misunderstanding.

Being misunderstood.   No matter who you are on this spinning earth, you will be misunderstood.  There’s no getting around it.  The question, then, is what can be the beauty inside of being misunderstood?  How does one see it as a gift and how do you deal with being that person who is in that prison of misunderstanding?  Here’s what I have found to be my dance in this place of being misunderstood.  These are the jewels I have learned and what I do, and how I cope, and THRIVE!  These are the ingredients I have found that keep me from becoming bitter and resentful.  These truths I need to encourage myself with once again tonight.

How to Thrive Thru Being Misunderstood:
  •  Briefly analyze yourself and your situation to see if there is any truth in the accusations.  (I emphasize briefly because some of us can torture ourselves over-analyzing a situation, thus throwing fuel on the fire of our own soul).
  • Take out time to be silent and to mourn the situation – and then, as my dad used to say after a good cry when I was a kid, “wash your face” (in other words, listen to the pain, let it express itself, and then turn the page and show it by example that healing can come and that, because these are lies that are spoken, they do not define the authentic self and that it’s ok to move on).
  • See the misunderstanding as a gift – even though it may not feel like it, this is an oppurtunity to remember that the lies of others do not define you and never to bow to the opinions of others – it’s an exercise in being a free spirit, and not becoming slaves to the schemes of man.
  • Never stoop to their level – don’t say something or print something that you will not be able to take back and therefore chain yourself to shackles of regret.
  • Be you!!  You only have this one life and there’s only one of you ever!  Never ever ever change your sacred core self to try to stoop to the ever-changing mirages of other’s approval
  • Take Jesus’ example:  You don’t have to defend yourself – your works and actions and fruits will speak for themselves!  (And you know what they say about actions…)
  • Focus on what really matters – Your job, your family, ultimately your calling for this time in history.  Find yourself making the world a better place.  Take the negative energy that others are pouring on you, and let it motivate you to turn it into positive energy by loving all those in your sphere.  The world needs more love and heroes in it – there will always be the villains who will do everything they can to stop you from fulfilling your destiny, your calling.  I like asking myself:  if this were a movie, what would I want my character to do in this situation?  This is where the story gets good because the audience is on the edge of their seats wondering, “what will she do with this crazy turn of events?!”  Own it!
  • Surround yourself with people who love you and celebrate you!  These are the people who honor your true self and just being in their presence will remind you that the lies others tell about you are not even worth your energy.
  • Don’t bite the bait of controversy and gossip that may surround you.  So many times when we know that there are websites and news going on about us or our situation, there is a great temptation to see what they’re all saying…although it’s good to be aware of what is being said so that you can know how to answer, beware of the addiction of controversy that can become all-consuming (check out my blog “Addicted to Great Controversy“).
  • Try to follow Matthew 18 – Try to make an effort to talk to the person(s) who may be spreading this rumor or preaching against your character, and have a civil conversation of both sides sharing.  Sometimes when we hear where both parties are coming from, compassion can be birthed.  But this is not always the case.  If they don’t hear you out, then leave the ball in their court and let it go.  Jesus hinted at this concept when He referred to it as “shaking the dust off your feet” and moving on.
  • Remember that you can’t control others – but you can control yourself – you are the one who sees your face in the mirror at the end of the day – when you love yourself, you don’t need to prove anything to others because you know where you stand, and that love will flow out to those around you.
  • Remember the TRUTH about how God views you – You are Beloved.  Don’t let the voices of the naysayers become the voice of God in your ears.  It’s interesting to note that a lot of deep hurt has and is originated from the “godly”.   Many of them will try to convince you that they speak for God.  This is not true.  We now have the Holy Spirit, which means that God is everywhere and has the capacity and desire to be with and speak to each of us.  (Here’s some great reminder promises of God’s view of us:  Hebrews 13:6; Jeremiah 29:11; Romans 8:31-39; Deuteronomy 31:6; Joshua 1:9Matthew 5:10).
  • Laugh and keep your sense of humor – This is God’s gift to us of a reality check and an unconcious way of dodging bitterness.
  • Do your utmost to raise your voice of your story – misunderstanding is usually always the child of miscommunication.  If after the other party has heard your side of the story, and they still refuse to “hear” you, go in peace.  You’ve done your part – you cannot control them.
  • Always think TWICE, or even three or more times, when you feel the urge to put someone else in a box.  After surviving being misunderstood, don’t be the perpetrator to someone else.  Use your experience as a compassionate reminder to not consciously do the same to another human brother or sister.
  • Pray for those who are putting you in the box, as well as for yourself.  This can be hard at times.  But remember prayer is not a way of excusing the hurt that has been done to you – it is a way of staying free from bitterness, getting true inner healing from that hurt, and prayer reminds me not to put myself on a pedestal over others.  Sometimes pain can morph into self-righteousness – prayer helps keep this from happening.

(What would you add?  What are some things and ways you’ve dealt with being misunderstood that have worked for you?)

Wherever you are and whatever your circumstances are with being misunderstood, I leave you with this quote from Martin Luther King Jr:

“Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom.  A man can’t ride you unless your back is bent.”

The “freedom” mentioned from this quote I take into my situation and interpret it as the freedom to not let the circumstances and words of others define my reality.  So straighten your back, hold your head up, and keep living the dangerous, misunderstood way of LOVE!

“You are going to hell for this!”  I was astonished by what I was hearing.  Eyes burned with hot anger while looking at me.  All I had said was that I was a pastor, and this was the response.  This happened a few years ago, yet responses like this from some people are not a new thing.  Many people feel very strongly about this topic, Women’s Ordination and even Women in Ministry.  It’s very interesting  to think as to why it is such a hot topic?  Does it really matter who God chooses to use?  Perhaps it has to do with our perception of what ordination means, and even what the title “pastor” really is all about.   Therefore, it is a must that we look into the history of where ordination, especially the way we practice it today, came from.

When looking at the history on any topic, there are so many different directions one could go.  I will only be focusing on a few parts of the historical side of things regarding the topic of women in ministry and ordination.  As you can imagine, there are entire books written with more information historically on both of these topics.  I will include a list of books and articles that have been helpful in my research that I can recommend.  But the fact is I will only be scratching the surface.  However, what I highlight are some important insights into this topic of ordination and I think you will see why.  ’

First of all, I will take a brief look at the history of women in ministry within the Adventist denomination, since this is where this hot topic is being discussed primarily at the time.  Secondly, I will focus on the rise of the modern-day pastor and the history of ordination, and will ask the question of whether these two categories are Biblical, especially in the way we recognize and practice them today.  Once again, as I have stated in my first 2 blogs on this subject (Ordination Part 1 – Biblical, and Ordination Part 2 – Spirit of Prophecy), it it not my intent to cause any controversy, but rather for us to prayerfully consider God’s take on this whole subject.

History of Some Female Pastors Within the Adventist Church

From the very beginning of the Adventist church, women were very prominent in leadership, pastoral work, and preaching.  This will be a brief overview of some of these prominent women.

Lucy Maria Hersey was one of the first women preachers who at first travelled with her father and spoke with such effect that “the people soon obtained the courthouse for her.”  Her ministry was lengthy and fruitful “and included the conversion of several men who took up the preaching of the advent message.”  (Women in Ministry, p. 219).

Abigail Mussey who at first was afraid to be titled a ‘preacher woman’ later described her experience:

“Preachers that oppose female laborers can shut up their houses, and refuse to give out their appointments; but they can’t shut up the private houses, or school-houses, and they cannot hinder others from giving out appointments; so there is no danger of shut doors or the way being hedged up…Doors opened, and I moved on, with sword in hand and the gospel armor on, with loving all and fearing none.  I knew in whom I believed, in whom I trusted, and who had sent me out.  My mission was from heaven, not from man.  My faith stood not in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.”    (Life Sketches and Experiences, p. 163-164).

Ellen Lane - first woman to receive a ministerial license by the Michigan Conference and the GC Conference in 1878.  She worked with her husband doing house-to-house labor as well as preaching “powerfully.”

Sarah A. Lindsey - Worked in the ministry with her husband, pioneering the work in western New York and Pennsylvania.  Her 1872 license permitted her to preach, hold evangelistic meetings, and lead out in the church business and committee meetings.  In one series of  meetings in Pleasant Valley, New York, she preached twenty-three times on the second advent.”

Hetty Hurd Haskell - Married to Stephen Haskell, trainer of Bible workers, gained a reputation for being a “powerful preacher”.

Lulu Russell Wightman - Ministered as a successful evangelist and lecturer.  She received her ministerial credentials in 1897, and her husband received his in 1903, showing that the church recognized their individual gifts, and also showing that her credentials were not merely because of her husband’s.  S.M. Cobb wrote the conference President later that year that she had “accomplished more in the last two years than any minister in the state.”  She was considered for ordination, but the brethren felt “that a woman could not be properly ordained – just now at least.”

Lorena Florence Faith Plummer - Probably the most notable.  Elected secretary of the Iowa Conference in 1897.  ”In 1900, when Clarence Santee was called to California, she became acting conference President.”  From 1913 until her retirement she headed the Sabbath School Department of the General Conference.

By 1878, “at least three women ministers had been licensed to preach.  these were followed by others – more than 31 women who were recognized by the church and licensed to preach between the years 1872 – 1915, the year of Ellen White’s death.”  (Women in Ministry, p. 220).

In fact, in 1881 at the General Conference session a resolution was passed that read:

“Resolved, that females possessing the necessary qualifications to feel that position, may, with perfect propriety, be set apart by ordination to the work of the Christian ministry.”

This was discussed…and referred to the General Conference Committee.  The committee consisting of George Butler, Stephen Haskell, and Uriah Smith, weren’t sure if it were the right time to ordain women.  But the very fact that they were discussing it shows that there was an openness of mind to women being pastors, even though it was in the late 1800′s.

These have been just a few of the women in early Adventism.  It’s very interesting to note also, that after Ellen White’s death, a dramatic decline took place in women’s involvement in ministry and licensing to preach.  In fact, by the 1940′s, they had all but disappeared from conference leadership.  ”Part of the reason for this decline was the requirement, voted in 1923, that every department leader should be a soul winner, with previous success in evangelism, and preferably ordained.”  And, as we know, women can do the first two requirements, but as for ordination, that has been on the waiting list since 1881.  Do we really believe the Biblical fact that ordination does not have any magical elements in itself?  Then why are we making such requirements?

This graph shows the rise and fall of women in leadership within the SDA Church

The History of The Pastor 

The only biblical reference for the word “pastor” is found in Ephesians 4:11 where it mentions gifts given to the church, and “pastors” is one of these gifts.  This gift, “pastors”, is put within the same context as that of “teacher”.  Not only that, but it is written in the plural, meaning that there are many who have this gift, not just one superior person.  There is no where in the Bible that supports the practice of a solo pastor heading up the church.  As George Barna and Frank Viola state in their book Pagan Christianity, “So prevailing is the pastor in the minds of most Christians that he is often better known, more highly praised, and more heavily relied upon than Jesus Christ Himself.”  (Pagan Christianity, page 105-106).

So where does this modern-day position of pastor come from, if it wasn’t found in the Biblical model of the early church?  Check out the events and people listed below that show how the rise of the “pastor” came to be:

- Man’s Desire for Hierarchy – Since the fall of man in the Garden of Eden, humanity has struggled with the quest to have a hierarchical form of leadership (meaning a human leader from the top down).  Starting with Moses, the people wanted to hear only from him instead of hearing from God for themselves (Exodus 20:19).  God, respecting human choice, granted them their requests, not only in that matter, but with the desire for a king to rule over them instead of being under the leadership of God (1 Samuel 8).  Anytime people would put a human at the helm of where God meant no human to be in control of others, there have always been issues.  Throughout Israel’s history within Bible times, there was always a struggle for humanity to put another human in the place of God, with God always trying to point humanity back to a trust and reliance upon Himself, and not on another human being.

-The Early Church – After Jesus came and the early church started up, until the 2nd Century, the church’s leadership was one that comprised of all people using their gifts and talents, under the headship of Jesus Christ.  There were no religious offices to fill.  ”Leaders were organic, untitled, and were recognized by their service and spiritual maturity rather than by a title or office.”  The only “titles” present  were ”apostles”, also known as church-planters who did not take up residency over the churches they planted;  ”elders”, also known as overseers or shepherds; and what later became known as “deacons”, those who helped with tasks of taking care of the needs of people in the community.  In the New Testament church model, there is no hierarchical  structure.  Instead it was a system of horizontal relationships with Christ being the head of all and over all.  (For a more extensive look at leadership within the early church, you can check out this document by Dr. Robert M. Johnston entitled “Leadership in the Early Church During It’s First Hundred Years.”)

- Ignatius of Antioch – Ignatius was the first person who began to elevate a few people over the others within churches.  He began by elevating one of the elders in each church above all the other elders.  And then this higher elder was given the name “bishop”.  He wrote extensively about the exaltation and importance of the bishop’s office.  It was Ignatius who presented the ideology that the bishop alone could conduct baptisms, facilitate the Lord’s Supper, approve marriages and preach sermons.  The other elders were seen as helpers to the bishop, with the bishop carrying all power and authority over the others.  Ignatius believed that this type of system, patterned after the political structure of Rome, would help to keep heresy from creeping into the church and would help create church unity.  This type of structure within the church started out small, but by the end of the 3rd Century, it had spread everywhere.  After some time, the bishop was the only one responsible for teaching others about faith, Christianity, etc.  The congregation, which had at one time been active, now was a passive group watching the bishop perform.  This position, “bishop”, was the forerunner of the contemporary pastor.

- Clement of Rome – Clement of Rome was the first Christian writer to make a distinction between leaders and non-leaders within the body of believers.  ”He was the first to use the word laity to distinguish people from the ministers. Clement argued that the Old Testament order of priests should find fulfillment in the Christian church.” (Pagan Christianity. pg. 113).  By the 3rd Century, the laity were considered second-class, untrained Christians.  As theologian Karl Barth said, “The term ‘laity’ is one of the worst in the vocabulary of religion and ought to be banished from the Christian conversation.” (Ibid. pg. 122).

- Tertullian – Tertullian was “the first writer to use the word clergy to refer to a separate class of Christians.”  (Ibid. pg. 113).  (It is interesting to note that the New Testament never uses the words clergy or laity, and “does not support the concept that there are those who do ministry (clergy) and those to whom ministry is done (laity).”  By the 3rd Century the clergy/laity gap was “widened to the point of no return.”  Clergy were seen as the specially trained leaders of the church, while the laity were seen as being “lesser mortals” that did not possess as great of gifts as the clergy.  This false perception led to the “profoundly mistaken idea that there are sacred professions (a call to “the ministry”) and ordinary professions (a call to a worldly vocation).”  (Ibid. pg. 122).  And, as we know, this perception is still alive today.

- Cyprian of Carthage – A pagan orator and teacher of rhetoric, converted to Christianity, yet  held onto some of his pagan customs and ideas, and brought back the “Old Testament economy of priests, temples, altars and sacrifices.”   Bishops began to be titled “priests” and sometimes “pastors”.  He even stated that the succession of bishops could be traced back to Peter – thus the term “apostolic succession” came into being.  As a writer, Cyprian refered back to the Old Testament priesthood to justify this practice.  ”Like Tertullian and Hippolytus before him, Cyprian used the term sacerdotes to describe the “presbyters” (another name for elders) and bishops.”  (Ibid. pg. 115, 116). Cyprian created the idea of sacerdotalism (the belief that there is a divinely appointed person who must mediate between God and people).

- Council of Nicaea – Bishops delegated the responsibility of the Lord’s Supper to the elders, and because this was all they now did, they (the elders) began to be called “priests”.  In many cases, the bishop then came to be regarded as the “high priest”, and even began to forgive sins.  All of these titles and positions began to overshadow the fact of the New Testament’s reality that all believers are priests unto God.  Instead, all believers began to put their eyes upon another human being as their leader, instead of on God.

- By the 4th Century – The clergy caste was now dominate.  The bishop at the top, followed by the presbyters (elders), followed by the deacons, and under all of them were the laymen.  ”The one-bishop rule became the accepted form of church government through out the Roman Empire.” (Pagan Christianity, pg. 115). By the end of the 4th Century, bishops were even more exalted.  Constantine was the first to give them great privileges – becoming involved in politics – which of course separated them even more from the other church offices and the common man.

- Constantine – It was an advantage to be a Christian under Constantine, and even more so a bishop and clergy.  Constantine ordered that the clergy receive fixed annual allowances (“ministerial pay”) and exempted them from paying taxes.  He did many other favors for the clergy, insomuch that many people suddenly felt “called to the ministry” during this time – which then become more of a career than a calling.

- 5th Century – The concept and practice of the priesthood of all believers was pretty much gone from Christianity at this point.  ”Access to God was now controlled by the clergy caste…Eventually, the bishop of Rome was given the most authority of all, and his position finally evolved into the office of the pope.” (Ibid. pg. 118).

- The Reformation – After years of being under this Roman organization within the church, the Reformation came about. Many reformers began to bring back the biblical aspect of the New Testament, not only in regards to grace, but also in regards to who and what exactly is a minister.  They (the reformers) “attacked the idea that the priest had special power to convert wine into blood, rejected the idea of apostolic succession, encouraged clergy to marry, revised the liturgy to give the congregation more participation, and abolished the office of the bishop and reduced the priest back to a presbyter.”  (Ibid. pg. 127).  Unfortunately, they hung onto many of the practices that had been handed down to them from all the years of human traditions, and still upheld the one-bishop rule idea, just now putting a different title on it.  The reformers recovered the biblical idea of the priesthood of all believers in regards to salvation and a personal relationship with God, but they did not incorporate this concept ecclesiologically – in other words, how it related to the church  and church offices.  The Reformers held to the belief that ordination (which was also adopted from pagan Rome) was the key to having power in the church and it was the ordained minister who could convey God’s true revelation to the people.

- Luther – Luther, one of the Reformers, held to the idea that anyone who preaches needed special training.  Like the Roman Catholics, “the Reformers believed  that only the “ordained minister” could preach, baptize and administer the Lord’s Supper.  As a result, ordination gave the minister a special aura of divine favor that could not be questioned.”  (Ibid. pg. 129).  The only group that opposed this were the Anabaptists, who claimed and practiced that every Christian is a minister and even has a right to stand up and speak in a meeting.  Because of this belief, the Anabaptists received harsh criticism and even in some cases, persecution.

- The title “Pastor” – The Reformers did not like using the word “priest” and so they began using the terms “ministers”, “preachers” and “pastors”.   Finally, the term “pastor” came into common use, mostly from the Lutheran Pietists.  And it has stuck ever since.

We can see, after looking at this brief history, that we are still not back to the Biblical roots of what it means to be a minister.  The Reformers started to get back in that direction, but tradition stopped them from going all the way back to the early church model.  It’s interesting to note that the New Testament word for minister is diakonos, which means “servant.” As Russell Burrill says in his book Revolution in the Church, “Ministry is a verb. Ministry describes what church members do, not a segment of the church structure. The ‘consumer church’ attitude of today has turned the clergy into performers — providers of a certain kind of service — and the laos, or people of God, into customers who sit back to be served. This is not biblical. It is sub-Christian. It is the scandal of our time.” (Revolution in the Church, pp. v,vi). ”We have taken the word minister and equated it with the pastor, with no scriptural justification whatsoever.”  (Pagan Christianity  pg. 135).  Perhaps it’s time we take up where the Reformers left off and get back to the original place where God is at the rightful Head of His church, and we, as His bride and body, are on equal ground.  We need to get back to the place where the only One lifted up is Jesus Christ.  The way things are right now, it looks a lot like climbing the corporate ladder of success, with so many striving for the upper positions of status – positions that God never intended us to have.

The History of Ordination

There are no Biblical references to the ways we do ordination today.  The only thing that comes close to an ordination service in the Bible is an act known of as “laying on of hands.”  Laying on of hands is only mentioned 26 times in the New Testament, and only involves 3 different circumstances.  The most references speaking of laying-on-of-hands (12 different references), are dealing with acts of healing or blessing others.  The next set of Biblical references dealing with laying-on-of-hands is referring to inviting the gift of the Holy Spirit to fall on a group of believers.  There are only 3 Biblical references that come anything close to ordination in the way we practice it now (Acts 6:6 – the Seven commissioned by the apostles; Acts 13:3 – Paul and Barnabas commissioned by the teachers and prophets at Antioch; and 1 Timothy 5:22 – Paul instructing Timothy to be cautious in commissioning local elders).  These three references are simply referring to a person or persons who are being endorsed to work for God, yet there is nothing magical that happens at this laying-on-of-hands ceremony, only an acknowledgment to what God is already doing and will do.  We see that this Biblical act of “laying-on-of-hands” is an empowering and affirming ceremony, but in no way does it usher in or commence a hierarchical form of leadership and status.

So where did the practice of ordination come from?  As we’ve seen from the history of where the title and position of the pastor came from, the concept of ordination has very similar roots.  The very first ordination service on historical records can be dated back to the 3rd Century.  The historical description of the service shows a 3-fold ordination.  This 3-fold ordination consisted of 3 separate ordination services and rites to 3 separate church offices:  the bishop, the presbyter (elder), and the deacon.  History also shows us where this idea came from.

This concept of ordination, especially the 3-fold ordination, was a practice within the political Roman Empire at the time.  Tertullian, who wanted to bridge the gap between the pagan society and Christianity, took this practice of ordination that existed within the political Roman Empire.  He then introduced it into the Christian church, and therefore began to create a caste system within the church that mimicked that of the political Ancient Roman Empire.  ”The term “ordination” comes from the Latin ordinare, “to put in ordo,” with ordo meaning “row, rank, or order.” In ancient Rome, ordo referred to a category of people, as in the “order of senators,” distinguished from the plebe” (or common people).  (Ordination in the New Testament? by Nancy Vyhmeister, Ministry Magazine, May 2002).  In Rome you were either born into this system, or you could be, by ceremony, placed into the higher status or rank.  The 3-fold organization among the Romans consisted of ordo into 3 different tiers.  The first tier, or the top office of ordination, was given to the highest class of citizens/senators and was known as “senatorial”;  the second tier, or middle office of ordination, was given to the class of knights and was known as “equestrian”; and the third tier, or last office of ordination, was given to a class of the common people and was known as “plebs”.

Cyprian and Ignatius also joined the bandwagon and helped to take this Roman model of hierarchy and introduce it into the rising Christian church, all with the intent to  make the church more organized and united.   As this model of ordination was adopted into the Christian church, this is what it looked like:  the 1st tier (or top position) consisted of bishops/pastors; the 2nd tier (or middle position) consisted of presbytors/elders; and the 3rd tier (or low position) consisted of deacons/common people.  This practice within the church at the time separated the bishop from the common people.  There were also other distinctions such as their clothing was now different to denote their higher position, and this rite of ordination was seen as being universal – meaning they would always be ordained for all time and wherever they went – once they were ordained, they would always be ordained.  Not only that, but only the ordained bishop had the “authority” to ordain others.  All of these separations and distinctions were not in accordance with Scripture at all, but rather mimicked the hierarchy of the Roman Empire.

It’s interesting to see the similarities of ordination in our church today and how we are still tied in many ways to the traditional Roman practices of ordination – practices that are not Biblical.  For instance, how long does it take for an ordination service of deacons and elders to take place?  Not long at all – usually it is a vote by raising of hands by the congregation, showing their agreement of certain individuals to fill that specific office.  That is then followed by an informal laying-on-of-hands ceremony that is conducted during the church service to show affirmation of their gifts.  But it is not at all this way when it comes to the ordination of a pastor.

There is a process that one must go through to be ordained as a pastor.  It differs between denominations.  Within the Adventist denomination it can look something like this:  Be in ministry for 2 or more years and preferably be educated beyond just a Batchelor’s degree – preferably a Master’s Degree in ministry such as an MDiv, etc.  During the ordination service itself we also see some of the ancient Roman ties of ordination showing up.  An ordination service for a pastor is usually a separate service, not just an informal laying-on-of-hands that takes place with elders and deacons in a regular church service.  Only those who have been ordained can ordain (by laying-on-of-hands) the candidate at the service – once again, we see the ties to the Roman tradition and not a Biblical position for this.  After the ordination takes place, we also see a differentiation between the ordained and the unordained.  The ordained minister now has the title of “Elder” instead of “Pastor” and there is a slight pay increase.  In fact, many who are being interviewed for ordination, express a need to take care of their families with the pay increase that will come with being an ordained minister.  Not only that, but there are other responsibilities that an ordained minister can partake of that others cannot, such as organize and unite churches as well as act as conference Presidents. (see The Seventh-day Adventist Church Manual).  Seeing all this, we must ask ourselves:  if we are “Bible-believing Christians”, why are we mimicking the ceremonious ranking of ancient Rome and participating in a practice that is not biblical at all?

Equality of All Believers

In closing, perhaps the reason we are having this debate in our church is because we are all, both men and women, participating in something that was never even ordained (no pun intended) of God.  God is the only One Who is the Head.  He never meant or intended His church to be one of human hierarchy.  We all are ordained and commissioned of God already! (Matthew 28:18-20; Jeremiah 1:5).  We don’t need a human being to say it to make it a reality.  In fact, every single human being is already ordained for a divine mission and calling for this time in earth’s history. (Esther 4:14).  No gift or mission is better than the others.  We all are equal, regardless of gender, race, title, job, education, culture, economics, etc.  Perhaps the real reason why this debate is happening is because of the equality issue that man-made ordination has created.  Perhaps it’s time to take ordination completely off the table, and return to the Biblical model of Christ being the head of the church, and all of us, both men and women, being equal under Him.  Perhaps it’s time to return to the biblical model of “laying-on-of-hands” that brings blessing, healing, a prayer for the Holy Spirit, and affirmation – a model that recognizes our individual gifts, but also keeps Christ as the Head of His church, and not a human being.

After this person told me I was going to hell, it made me realize, once again, that we have adopted so many man-made traditions and have assumed that these traditions are actually from God.  When, in reality, He never set up a human hierarchy to be in the church.  He is the Head, and has called and ordained all of us.  It is His Spirit alone that enables us to do anything beyond ourselves.  (Acts 1:8).  I have been ordained already, and so have you.  My title does not define me.  Even if I were not a “pastor”, I would still be and do what I am – because I have been created for such a time as this – and so have you.  Nothing can ever change that, except my own personal choice.  I do not believe in a God Who will send someone to hell because they witness for Him but, alas, they have a different set of genitalia than the majority.  Seriously?  C’mon – I think we all know God is bigger than that.  Jesus was radical.  Perhaps it’s time we did something radical and laid aside our need, both men and women, for ordination and actually took Jesus at His Word – that He is the Head of His church and we all have been called to be His body to a world in need.   Perhaps then every member would be empowered to be the minister that God already ordained them to be, and we would see LOVE actually embodied on this tiny planet we call Earth.

(To hear a more in-depth explanation of the history of ordination, you can check out this video by Dr. Darius Jankiewicz:)

Sources, Books and Articles:

Women in Ministry: Biblical and Historical Perspectives, by Special Committee, SDA Theological Seminary &  Nancy Vyhmeister

Pagan Christianity?: Exploring the Roots of our Church Practices, by George Barna & Frank Viola

Revolution in the Church, by Russell Burrill

Ordination in the New Testament? by Nancy Vyhmeister, Ministry Magazine, May 2002

The Seventh-day Adventist Church ManualGeneral Conference of Seventh-day Adventists

SACRAMENTAL THEOLOGY AND ECCLESIASTICAL AUTHORITY, by Darius Jankiewicz

Leadership in the Church During It’s First Hundred Years, by Robert M. Johnston

There are many gifts that the church has been given.  One of these gifts is the gift of prophecy (see Romans 12:6).  Within the Adventist Christian tradition, most Adventists view Ellen White, one of the church’s founding leaders, as having the gift of prophecy.  This means that many Adventists believe that her writings were inspired by God.  Most Adventists believe that the messages and inspirations she received were sent from God for the people living during the “time of the end.”

Seeing that this debate of women’s ordination is a hot topic within the Adventist denomination right now, and seeing that many Adventists view Ellen White’s writings as being inspired by God, it would seem privy to see what she has to say on the subject.

Ellen White

First of all, it is slightly ironic that many who argue that we are not to receive spiritual authority from a woman and believe it is unbiblical, have no issue at all receiving authoritative teaching from this woman – Ellen White – and this authoritative  teaching is received and utilized by reading and quoting her writings.  But that is beyond the point.  Ellen White has some very interesting things to say about women in ministry, especially since most of what she said was written in the late 1800′s and early 1900′s.

Included below are some of the most prominent quotes on the subject of women in ministry roles.  Just as we need to use good hermeneutic skills in the usage of reading and interpreting the Bible, the same is true of any source.  And so, with that being said, context is a huge element to take into account when understanding statements or quotes from authors.  When Ellen White uses the term “ministry”, she is either referring to canvassing ministry, medical ministry, or pastoral ministry.  All of the following quotes are only taken from the context of pastoral ministry.

On the topic of ordination, in her book Desire of Ages, Ellen White reiterates what the Bible already seems to reveal to us.  She writes,

All who receive the life of Christ are ordained to work for the salvation of their fellow man.”                                                        (Desire of Ages, page 822 – Emphasis mine).

In referring to the great need for women in preaching the truth, she writes,

“It was Mary that first preached a risen Jesus…if there were twenty women where now there is one, who would make this holy mission their cherished work, we should see many more converted to the truth.  The refining, softening influence of Christian women is needed in the great work of preaching the truth.”  (Evangelism, pg. 472).

In a blatant quote, where she writes about pastors also being involved in the canvassing work, she writes:

“It is the accompaniment of the Holy Spirit of God that prepares workers, both men and women, to become pastors to the flock of God.”   (Testimonies Volume 6, pg. 322)

Ellen White also encouraged the need for men and women to work together in gospel ministry:

“When a great and decisive work is to be done, God chooses men and women to do this work, and it will feel the loss if the talents of both are not combined.”   (Evangelism, pg. 469)

As in the case of families, Ellen White was a mother of 5 children and was still a minister and leader, showing us that it is possible to minister to others and still be a mother.  She exhorts the church to not judge mothers who want to be involved in ministry:

Seventh-day Adventists are not in any way to belittle woman’s work. If a woman puts
her housework in the hands of a faithful, prudent helper, and leaves her children in
good care, while she engages in the work, the conference should have wisdom to
understand the justice of her receiving wages.  (Manuscript Releases 5, pg. 324)

 However, she also writes that perhaps some women were not meant to be mothers, but rather would be better fitted as ministers:

 “The way is open for consecrated women.  But the enemy would be pleased to have the women whom God could use to help hundreds, binding up their time and strength on one helpless little mortal, that requires constant care and attention.” (Manuscript Releases Volume 5, pg. 325)

In reference to those who may feel women pastors are not fulfilling their unique feminine roles, check out this quote:

Woman, if she wisely improves her time and her faculties, relying upon God for wisdom and strength, may stand on an equality with her husband as adviser, counselor, companion, and co-worker, and yet lose none of her womanly grace or modesty. She may elevate her own character, and just as she does this she is elevating and ennobling the characters of her family, and exerting a powerful though unconscious influence upon others around her. Why should not women cultivate the intellect? Why should they not answer the purpose of God in their existence? Why may they not understand their own powers, and realizing that these powers are given of God, strive to make use of them to the fullest extent in doing good to others, in advancing the work of reform, of truth and real goodness in the world? Satan knows that women have a power of influence for good or for evil; therefore he seeks to enlist them in his cause.  – Good Health, June, 1880.

In writing about the importance of women being paid equally with that of men, she writes:

 ”Injustice has sometimes been done to women who labor just as devotedly as their husbands, and who are recognized by God as being necessary to the work of the ministry.  The method of paying men laborers, and not paying their wives who share their labors with them is a plan not according to the Lord’s order, and if carried out in our conferences, is liable to discourage our sisters from qualifying themselves for the work they should engage in.(Manuscript Releases Volume 5, pg. 325).

She also states in the book Evangelism:

 “The tithe should go to those who labor in word and doctrine, be they men or women.” (Evangelism, pg. 492)

Ellen White wrote to a member of a church who was saying horrible things about some women who were leaders in the church.  In the letter, she notes that is it not gender, but character that determines fitness for church leadership:

 ”It is not always men who are best adapted to the successful management of a church.  If faithful women have more deep piety and true devotion than men, they could indeed by their prayers and labors do more than men who are unconsecrated in heart and life.”  (Manuscript Releases Volume 19, pg. 55-56)

The one known place that Ellen White recommends ordination for women is:

“Women who are willing to consecrate some of their time to the service of the Lord should be appointed to visit the sick, look after the young, an minister to the necessities of the poor.  They should be set apart to this work by prayer and laying on of  hands.  In some cases, they will need to counsel with the church officers ro the minister; but if they are devoted women, maintaining a vital connection with God, they will be power for good in the church.  This is another means of strengthening and building up the church.  We need to branch out more in our methods of labor.  Not a hand should be bound, not a soul discouraged, not a voice should be hushed; let every individual labor, privately or publicly, to help forward this grand work.”  (The Review and Herald, July 9, 1895)

It’s interesting that Ellen White doesn’t speak very specifically about “Ordination.”  And that brings me back to a question from my earlier blog:  where did we get the idea of Ordination?  Could it be that the way we do it is not even Biblical?  What if, as Ellen White writes above from Desire of Ages, ALL are ordained, and ordained by Christ alone and His Spirit!  What if this whole discussion is all a waste of time, bickering like children over who is best or who needs to be picked.  It’s like fighting over who gets the best seat in the family vehicle,  when in reality, it doesn’t really matter because we’re all going on the same trip, and God is in the driver’s seat!  I will deal with this question, ordination, in more detail in my final blog, but I do want to include this killer quote from Ellen White in her book Acts of the Apostles.  Check this out:

“Their (Paul and Barnabas) ordination was a public recognition of their divine appointment to bear to the Gentiles the glad tidings of the gospel.  Both Paul and Barnabas had already received their commission from God Himself, and the ceremony of the laying on of hands added no new grace or virtual qualification. It was an acknowledged form of designation to an appointed office and a recognition of one’s authority in that office. By it the seal of the church was set upon the work of God…At a later date the rite of ordination by the laying on of hands was greatly abused; unwarrantable importance was attached to the act, as if a power came at once upon those who received such ordination, which immediately qualified them for any and all ministerial work. But in the setting apart of these two apostles, there is no record indicating that any virtue was imparted by the mere act of laying on of hands. (Acts of the Apostles, pg. 162  Emphasis added)

So it is clear, according to the above statement, that ordination is merely a human recognition of something that God is ALREADY doing in a person.  So what gives us the right to say who we will or won’t “ordain” when God has already done the ordaining?  Perhaps we really, instead of talking about who should and should not be ordained, should be discussing our whole practice of ordination in general and whether or not it’s even Biblical.  In fact, what if ALL people were considered commissioned ministers already, and God is using them regardless of whether or not human hands are placed on them?  It seems to be the case, according the the Great Commission in Matthew 28:18-20 and Ephesians 1:21-23).   God is the One will ALL AUTHORITY, and He is the Head, and we ALL, regardless of gender, are under Him.  The very fact that He can use us at all, in all our brokenness, is truly miraculous.

In closing, Ellen White was a leader beyond her time.  She faced opposition herself for following her calling from God.  She writes about an experience where her brother did not want her to be a female preacher.  He wrote to her imploring, “I beg of you, do not disgrace the family.  I will do anything for you if you will not go out as a preacher.”  Ellen White wrote back, “Can it disgrace the family for me to preach Christ and Him crucified?  If you would give me all the gold your house could hold, I would not cease giving my testimony for God.”  (Signs of the Times, 24 June, 1889, 2, emphases added).

NOTE:  For more info, check out this article entitled “A Power That Exceeds That of Men”: Ellen G. White on Women in Ministry“, which is chapter 10 from the book, Women in Ministry, Special Committee, SDA Theological Seminary.